Today's Conffession

Well..hari ini gw gak seceria biasa'a..

gw murung n pundung karena temen gw..

dia mem'provoke gw..

padahal gw lagi gak mo bahas masalah itu..

dari kmaren..heran daah..

suka2 gw atuh..

lagian jg sbner'a bukan gw yg mau..ortu gw yg mo...yasudlah..

it's all over now..

gw berusaha menahan emosi..hampir aja meledak dan keluar lava'a..huahahaha!!

hari ini udah ckup gw pundung..

karang gw dah stabile..LOL..

gw akuin..gw emg egois..

gw ngejauhin seseorang yg harus'a tadi'a jadi tanggung jawab gw..dan..benar kata guru B.i gw..nanti'a dia yg akan menolong kita saat kesusahan..ternyata emg dia lebih baik daripada temen dket gw sendiri..

well..

im kind of trash..

and i feel i worse than trash..

oh God..

smoga aja gw bisa jadi pribadi yg lebih baik lagi..

well..SEMANGAT!! HAHAHA!!!!

Forgive me God..well..gw seneng kalo ada orang yg peduli m gw walaupun mngkin gw gak bisa bgtu peduli sama orang..gw peduli tapi sulit utk melakukan'a..

wew..smoga gw bisa jadi lebih baik lagi!!! OREEEEEE!!!!

About Memories - Billy Gilman

Memories are a great gift
Memories are given to us by God
As a keepsake and a treasure
Memories allow us to call upon the past

*Memories can teach us
About what things are good to repeat
Memories they warn us
About what things should never be allowed to happen again
Memories are a gift to the past
That we hold in the present
To create what can be a great future
Treasure and keep memories
For the sake of
For the sake of
For the sake of life

Memories offer us opportunities to laugh or to cry
Memories offer us opportunities to smile or to reminisce


*

Based on Mattie Stepanek's poem
(Music Through Heartsongs)

Boring Holiday~!!!

Well..
From last Monday until today..
first and second years jhs were not going school..
because the third years jhs was doing some examination..
then...aaaah..i can't think about this..
tomorrow i'll go to school again..T___T
HARPITNAS euy..!
Haikz...but..it's okay...but..=="
im too lazy for it..i wanna sleep..sleep..>,<"

ah..
selama liburan ini kerjaan gw tidur..makan,..beresin baju..maen sepeda..maen komputer..maen ps..bwakakakakakak..*plak*..
sungguh sperti orang males..
eh tapi gw bantu mama papa gw juga loh..!!!
wohohohoho..
ah..tapi gw pengen jalan2 keluar kota..
kemaren sih sempet pas hari Minggu sebelum liburan...
tapi sue'a karena papa mama yang diundang buat makan2 presentasi gitu..gw yang parahnya nunggu di luar restoran coz gw pkir gw gak bisa masuk..soalnya gw liat pintu masuknya sperti d blokir..malangnya nasibku..(hiks) tapi ternyata ada pintu satu lagi...gw kira itu khusus waiter n waitress'a doang..weleh..ternyata pelanggan yg makan d situ juga lewat situ..
1 jem ato 1 stengah jem gw nunggu d luar..udah mah kebelet..panas..hareudang (sama aja)..!!
diliatin orang wae..hihi...malu..>,<
gak bisa duduk tuh slma gw di luar waktu itu..malem pula..pegel ore..>,< tadinya gw pengen minta konci mobil aja k papa..tapi gak d bolehin..==" kata'a suruh di dalem aja..ah tapi nanti gw malah ngiler liat makanannya..==" gw juga pesen makanan sih..gw plih yang kira2 aja..
eh tapi gw gak kenyang n merasa salah karena salah pesan...
haikz..
lapar banget malam itu..
dan akhirnya gw pulang dengan damai sambil menghabiskan beberapa kerang hijau, sepiring nasi dan seporsi kangkung tauco..
yaaackkk..>,< tauco'a gak doyan..

well well..
gw lagi demen Roxas nih..!!>,< Keren sih..>,keren..hehehehehehe..
Roxasora..
sama2 keren ding><♥
pokoknya di hari terakhir ore liburan ini..ore mo maen KINGDOM HEARTS..!!!!!!!

Oh Really

UUUGGGHHH...
Im just happy yesterday..
but the trauma comin again..
im not in mood..
i hate this...
i really not in mood..

im happy yesterday but im down today because of the same problem before..
geez..
i just want to live in peace in this life...
i just want to calm in this life..
not like this..

huhuhuhu..TT_____TT

i like trapped in something killing me..
huhuhhuhuhu..TT___TT

hope this problem will be solved soon...>,<

oh God..T___T

OH YEAH..

hey hey..do you know what..
now i don't want to love that bad boy again..!!
geez..
he did something unnormal for 14 y.o teens..!!!

yaikz..=="

then..my friend said he lied so much..

and..if i think..that's true..
maybe..
hm..what a big llllllliiiiiiiiarrrrrrrrrr..=="
hiey..
his girlfriend is pity..


if they don't married or they break up..


i will laugh for them..

they still a teenagers..and just in a relationship..
not married ..but..they already touch each other like hug..
touching hand..

that's not really normal for 14 y.o teens u know..!

yaikz..
he lied to me..
he lied to his own friend..
he lied to his PARENTS..

what a ..=="


yeah..

by other mean..
im pretty hate him..but i don't want to hate him..
because im a Christian..

hehehe.. (=

so..i just should quiet..
^^
and..
step step step into future..


hohohoho

thank YOU SO MUCH GOD..!!>,<>
You solved my very problems..^^
im happy..
i LOVE YOU GOD..>♥<
YEAH..^^
before..
i already prayed like this :" God..if he is not my couple in this life..please avoid him from me.."

then God answered it..
his bads opened..
and i know now..
what was that boy did when im sad thinking about him..
HAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I STILL LOVE HIM..!!

Honestly i still love him until this second..i miss all of my sweet memories with him...i love him so much..i miss everything with him..everyday i never forget about him..i dunno why i still love him..

although he already got a girlfriend..huft..i wonder one day i get someone better than him and i can make another sweeter memories than before..i really want to get a new one..

Honestly too..i wanna be his girlfriend right now..and..i wanna all of the truth open..!! I ever said this, "I will love you until my last breath..!" to him in text message via mobile..and i don't know how's his feel.. hm..

I ever gave him a cute frame as his birthday present..i bought it by my self and with my own money..ah..and he said, "Thanks, jess.." I really appreciate his words.. i love him so much..i miss our time.. but it's already passed..why i feel the past is more beautiful than future..? geez..i won't be like this..i should patient..hm..

what should i do..? i love him so much.. im sad if i remember about that sweet memories..

It's Holiday..^___^

Hey Fellas..! it's holiday..! whoa i got 7th rank in Term. 1..! yeah not bad..hey..Merry Christmas and Happy new Year, guys..^^

hm..it's kind of weird holiday..hahaha..^^ i pretty like it coz i enjoy it with my nii-chan..^^ hm..hey..i adored my friends while they on the stage last 25..!! they're cool..!! they attended Candlelight Service..too bad im not join it..=3=) because of what..? im too shy and forgot about the date of last exercise..haha..so fool..! geez..! next year i wanna join..!! except nothing...!! hehe..sorry God..forgive me Father..>,<

hm..about this holiday..almost everyday i get up at 9.00 a.m..hm..im too tired ..? haha..weird me..XD

geez..i wanna go to somewhere in these holiday..hm..in next 1 January 2010 i will go to Jakarta..i will gather with my families..hope that's be a great event..hm.. Yensan is holiday in Bali.. Putri is in Solo.. Cynthia is in Malay..geez..==" they're all gone from Karawang..wanna go to somewhere..!!!
Merry Christmas and Happy new Year..!!^___^ God bless us..^^